Sunday, January 17, 2010
ok so there is no point in regretting what has been done. things happen for a reason dont they. maybe right now i cant see it yet but yeah it takes time. which ever sch i end up in, its the a's that matter the most. haha like what fats said, go there study for two yrs and get lost. well not really get lost ah, gotta make those 2 yrs worth the time and effort.
my world is changing.
change is the only constant.
was reading old blog posts just now and i realised that my way of blogging has really changed. no longer do i blog abt the day and all. haha and yvonne, i miss your funny retarded posts. smile ok(: things happen for a reason, although its always hard for us to accept them at first.
tmr will be a nerd outing. haha ashwiyni is joining the club!
i miss you guys already man. its gonna take some time getting used to these changes.
nasuha
Thursday, January 14, 2010
i really don't know what to dooooo.
Monday, January 11, 2010
and yes its all over.
but i feel very weird abt it all ending. felt to me like it was another prelim result but heh the tension was just nerve wrecking! all i can say is that im just extremely thankful for everything. wasnt the perfect 6 i was secretly hoping for but glad with the 7. most of all, im glad those faces had looks of happiness(:
and so now, its time to make a decision on the next step of our life. hmms to choose btw parents or something i have been dreaming and hoping abt. i know mum will support anything i choose but i cant help notice that she would love to have a rafflesian daughter. hownowbrowncow!
all i want now is to spend time with my friends of the zoo. honestly, really sad no one coming with me. gonna be the only one.. well friendship knows no boundaries. haha after all we have something called spamming each others fb!
nasuha
OMGOOSH ITS OVERR.
Haha. So much tension tension, all overrr. I want to say that i am very proud of my friends!(: Jolenee, thank god you got your A1s you deserve every single ONE that you got! Yuli, Zak and i last row we clapped damn loud for you okay!(: BUTTT Yuli and Shermin went missing uhhh): See you two soon okay!
And my Delta dearests! We made it through this journey together(: We have no six pointers which is rather funny actually, but nyehh you guys still did greatt. Not everybody is happy but chin up friends, its really really not the end of the world. (: I love you guys very very much and ohmygod no more worrying abt results!(:
I wasnt sure what to feel when i opened my own, but everyone else is happy for me. So i'm good(: Parents were really happy when i called, dad started talking abt jc and all and mum, aiyo this mum put me on speaker and her whole office clapped for me hahaha. Attai said to make myself free to go laptop-shopping heehee.
I was hoping most of all for a double-one for Mdm Lum but although i didnt get it she said she's very happy still. Got to hug her((:
I realised some teachers arent thaat happy cos they compare my results with my class ones but cmon la. If you know where i'm coming from you'd say its a miracle enough. Hohoho. I wasss actually hoping for 9 so it'd make a nice pattern from myes but NYEHHHHHH.
6As sounds nice ah hehhh. Doesnt matter anymore, its done and i'm glad.
Friends, we need to cheer up some and decide who's going where with who! I hopeee we go togethergether(: Tmr okay we go out and decide k, see yall on fb tonight HAHA.
No more tears okayyy, done is done and there's no changing it, but we can change the future, so smileee and rmb you still got us(: Love you 11 girls, and i'm really proud of all of you. We've come so far you know.
I feel rather mature haha i just crossed a big milestone in my life! Heeheeee. (:
I want to hug my friends tight tight tightly tomorrow, so all of you pls come k. Love my Delta.
And thank you, you too(: For just being there, and opening it with me(: andd sorry too.
Okay i'm hungry already. See you tmr!(:
yvonne
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Hi.
Its tomorrow. I dreamt i got F9.
So scaredd. Sickening feeling shit.
Hope its fineeee, for everyone.
And i'm sorry. Really sorry.
I miss my housee.
Seeyou then.
yvonne.
hmms
it sucks when you know people are expecting a great deal from you and the pressure is there. but it sucks even more when you end up disappointing these people, especially those whom you really want to make them proud. i've realised that no matter what happens, i can't stop ppl frm expecting a whole lot more frm me.
its gone past the stage where i can filter off what everyone says and not be bothered.
to you, i was the unpolished gem two yrs ago. i know you have been waiting patiently all these months to see the gem and i truly hope all the waiting will be worth it. for your sake, for everyones sake.
i've realised that there is nothing else i've wanted so badly in my 17 (almost) years of living.
whatever happens, i hope i'll be able to take it with an open and accepting heart.
but it will still suck to see you sad
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Hellooooo(: Meet my mummeh. Haha. I know its random but just felt like talking abt her. Ytd she was talking to us and for some reason or another my mood just got better and better. I love how her mood can swing from annoyed to crazy in a few mins haha. Pltmates probably know the extent of her madness, right Nasuha? Hahaha. She's the kind who in the middle of sth serious will suddenly burst into uncontrollable giggles for really the most silliest reasons. I likeee. Haha. And this is the woman who scolds sis and me for cackling in the middle of the day or night just cos she's sleeping. Hahaha i rmb there was once she woke up from her sleep cos sis and me were laughing too loud and she came and called us
cows. HAHAHA. It certainly didnt stop our laughter that day heh. I love her craziness and her ability to see good in bad stuff. Plus of course la she rarely complains abt me heeheehee. Sure there are times she gets naggy and rather irritating, and her voice is terribly nerve-grating when she's calling us, but not always bad la huh(: And all her monkey faces too mygooosh hahaha. Can you believe this is actually the sanest photo i have of her know. It was taken at the night safari. Jahh. Ytd she was talking abt results and told me its okay if i cannot go jc i can go poly and take nursing hohoho. I love her realistic expectations too hehe. No pressuree. Haha. Life hasnt always been fantastic but i think she deals pretty well. (: Its not mothers day or what but i just felt like saying this. Cos i doubt i'll ever say i love you or anyth straight to her. Humhum.
After saying all this ahh, i have this feeling i'll get annoyed with her later today hohoho. Always happens rightt. (:
Hoooo. Pltmates outout with PPG nowz. Too bad there's a naming ceremony later, i hope it'll be fun/funny enough to keep me awake. Funny cos crazy mum and her crazy sisters will all get tog HAHAHA. (:
Kkk.
Be happy dont worry smile more and most importantly, count your blessings everyone! (: Cause life's only as good as we make it. (i'll bet all the money in my wallet now that i'll conveniently forget this the next time i feel life sucks hoho)
AND OMGOOSH talking abt money, i HATE the working world shitzzzz. Nasuha ah, i forgot to tell you, the job ppl didnt give me my money properlyyy): Cheating me only assholes wait now i'll complain to my dad and report yall to MoM HAH. I happily borrowed money now dont know how to return hehhh:/
My hair's prettyy long already i didnt realise till i was washing it ytd and felt it reach rather low on my back heehee(: I wanna cut! And i'm going to botak after As! Hair For Hope ftw! Anybody wanna join me, Ash or Fats? (:
Results Monday la ak. Not ready but cmon lets just get it over with. Mum said she thinks worst i'll get is 14. Hmms. Nth left for me to do ready anyways, hope and pray only. See you all on Monday friends!
Okay going to go remove Jubileez deco now! Mum giving tarzan warcry to call us sheeesh.
K byez!
YVONNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Bursting with things to say but not the right time.
Scareddd so scaredd. :S
Friday, January 01, 2010
heyy well since yvonne blogged, it kinda made me feel like posting too. hmms perhaps my reflections on 2009 too.
well, 2009 was a bittersweet year. great beginnings but many endings too. endings which came too soon for me, one which i was not really prepared to call it an end. but i guess like what someone once told me, change is the only constant. 2009 was hands down the most memorable year for countless reasons. mainly caused it marked the end of my cedar journey.
i was going through my boxes of stuff frm my 4 yrs as a cedarian; the endless letters written to juniors and seniors folded in our special way, valentines day gifts (so gonna miss how we girls celebrate it), rod letters, photos etc. and wow time really did fly past. so yeah these memories are for me and those who went through not only 2009 but 2006-2009 with me. throught thick and thin despite the mistakes i've made within this period.
who else more if not alpha '06/bravo '07/charlie '08/delta '09. my biggest wish for 2010 besides education and family would be to see us remain as friends. rmb guys, pltmates for life huh. haha you guys are the best monkeys i can turn to no matter what happens. we went through all sorts of shit tgt and although sometimes we had our fights, it just cld not break as apart. 2009 was the best yr to me for our friendship. it was abt sacrificing and understanding each other, not easy for 12 ppl to do. but we did. i really cant imagine not seeing you guys everyday as i step into sch, not seeing you monkeys at the round table or making so much noise everywhere ard the sch. it worries me sometimes to think what 2010 will do to us but if we have gone through 4 yrs with each other, whats another yr right? i truly hope so.
but ncc was not the only thing for me in 2009. it was abt cpb too. my exco. joyp, sarah, joyy, huda, rizwana, wen min and deryn. can't expect me to forget our times in the PR huh. we had a special bond which was fostered through our love and passion for the board. thank you so much for the friendship and more so for the acceptance of me with all the changes that happened.
then there is 4c, more so the special ppl who were always there for me in 4c. haha angeline whom i can never get rid off (and never want to), melinda, jiamin, sarah, si min, michelle and of course rachel wong dearest annoying table partner who is forever using her moral values on me! haha wont forget the times in the library during bio, all the toilet breaks and basically for making me laugh all the time. i'll miss you guys so much and i do have regrets of not being able to spend more time with you guys.
well there is so much to say act abt 2009. as a person, i too changed. hopefully for the better. 2010 seems huge but i know i can always count on cedar for being a place i can lean onto whenever i need it.
i'll never get tired of saying this,
once a cedarian, always a cedarian.
there is a reason for cliches. it just shows how impt they act mean that we always tend to rmb them.
happy new yr guys!
